Embarrassing story about my small penis

Right, so I am a South Asian Muslim guy living in the U.K. My penis measures about an inch long when soft and maximum 3.5 inches when I have an erection, so it’s quite small. I recently went out with a girl I met at the bar who also goes to my college and we ended up at her house. Things got a bit racy and obviously I had a raging boner, so I took my pants off. Moment she sees my cock though, she bursts out laughing, ‘OH MY GOD that’s so tiny!’. I was so ashamed, we didn’t even have sex, she laughed and asked me to jerk off, but when I couldn’t use my whole hand it just made her laugh harder. I wanked, shot my load into some tissue, flushed it and then left. Next day at college, it turns out pretty much all the girls know I have a small penis, because they giggle at me and show me their first and second finger close together. Every time I’ve tried to pick up a girl I would be refused, because my cock was too small to please a woman. In the end I ended up getting off to small penis humiliation porn and that’s how I cum these days.